My Psychological Profile of Richard Dawkins

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 In the book, Dawkins mentions one occasion when a teacher put a hand down his trousers at a prep school in Salisbury, and four others at Oundle, when he “had to fend off nocturnal visits to my bed from senior boys much larger and stronger than I was”. 

One master at his public school, Oundle, he writes, “was prone to fall in love with the prettier boys. He never, as far as we knew, went any further than to put an arm around them in class and make suggestive remarks, but nowadays that would probably be enough to land him in terrible trouble with the police – and tabloid-inflamed vigilantes.””I look back a few decades to my childhood and see things like caning, like mild paedophilia, and can’t find it in me to condemn it by the same standards as I or anyone would today.”  ”I think we should acknowledge it. That’s one point… But the other point is that because the most notorious cases of paedophilia involve rape and even murder, and because we attach the label ‘paedophilia’ to the same things when they’re just mild touching up, we must beware of lumping all paedophiles into the same bracket.”

http://www.richarddawkins.net/news_articles/2013/9/7/the-world-according-to-richard-dawkins-the-times

 

Most people don’t know how to visualize things or how to switch perspectives and see things from another person’s eyes, I do, that is why they call me the mind hacker and the psychopath hunter.  I have repeatedly pointed out psychopaths and predicted their behavior years ahead of time.  My psychological model was made based on detecting how psychopaths communicate so that I could recognize them and understand how they think, what the form of their conquest is, what their motivation is, what their end game is.  Psychopaths don’t want to be understood, they misrepresent themselves.  The truth of what they say is based on the effect they hope to elicit from you.  They manipulate your emotions, and bypass your threat filter, and then they strike.  They approach you strategically and not authentically and honestly.

I believe that some psychopaths are basically over-coddled children, they had a parental authority that let them get away with things and rewarded them for psychopathic behavior, and created an environment for them to be a little psychopath.  When this type of person grows up they continue forcing the frame in which they were raised, trying to get people to participate with that premise.  Let me paint a picture for you, Dawkins is describing a highly sexualized environment in which boys reward and punish each other with sexual behavior and a parental authority that participates with it and even encourages it.  C. S. Lewis described a similar environment in which boys used what her referred to as tarting and fagging, in order to gain approval or humiliate someone into submission.  Now the thing is that Dawkins thrived in this environment, he succeeded in this environment, most people do not hate the environment in which they succeeded and rose to the top.

What I suspect that Dawkins is concealing, though he continues to paint himself as a victim, is that he actually enjoyed the attention.  I suspect that teacher inspired him, just as Dawkins is emotionally connected to the event and can’t condemn it.  Dawkins has never missed out on any opportunity to condemn and ridicule religious people so it is a huge departure for him to defend “mild pedophilia” there is something else going on here, a topic so intimately associated with religious abuse which he is so eager to exploit and he vacillates all of a sudden?  I think it likely that Dawkins not only loved that teacher but her modeled himself after that teacher, who was probably a role model for him.  The mind is an association making machine, and Dawkins associated sex with learning and science at a very young age.  He had a teacher that rewarded him with sexual attention, this would have been noticed by the other students.  Dawkins flatters himself by saying that the teacher was only attracted to the pretty students.

We see that just like a varsity all state baseball or football champion Dawkins is stuck in that time trying to relive his Golden Years, we all know somebody like that.  He is reproducing behaviors from his childhood.  When he subjects religious people to humiliation he is using the behaviors he picked up in school, the sexual bullying, Dawkins is picking on the intellectual queers.  Dawkins behavior is based on flaunting his sexual prowess, his evolutionary superiority, he is demonstrating why he is the most eligible bachelor.  We emulate whatever behavior we believe to be dominant.  Also our worldview has to make us correct in doing what we want to do, so of course he doesn’t condemn “mild pedophilia”.

I break everything down into patterns and tautologies, and I look for repetition and departures from repetition in a person’s rhetoric and behavior.  Dawkins is a conflation master, he is very strategic and deliberate in his arguing method.  He premeditates his arguments and I think he might also be premeditating his life and moving towards an end game.  In his book, THE GOD DELUSION, which is a clever way of inviting people to make the assumption that religious people are insane, (notice how he doesn’t say it but he invites his readers to make that conclusion?)   he originally quoted another woman talking about being sexually molested and she said that the experience was “icky” but didn’t do any lasting damage as emotional abuse would have.  That narrative changed to, he was the victim of molestation and it didn’t do any permanent damage, oh, and he can’t condemn it.  So, what we see is that their is some guilt, concealment, and strategic behavior, the narrative changed, Dawkins is sidling up to his actual position.

Nothing in the narrative, “I wasn’t permanently damaged” and “I can’t condemn it.”  would disagree with the idea that he enjoyed it and wouldn’t mind being affectionate with a young student.  You can’t condemn it but at what point does that become condoning it or desiring it?  Remember what we said about the philosophy or the world view of the individual necessarily making themselves correct in their desires and goals?

The Master Conflater, conflates religious people with insane people, Agnostics with intellectual cowards, and deists with theists, and forces them to defend fundies.  He strategically attacks the weakest and stupidest religious people and believes that he is falsifying religiosity.  But he does for some bizarre reason make a distinction with pedophilia…

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I believe that Dawkins wants to be honest about himself and he feels like people would reject him if he says that he is aroused by educating young boys.  I believe that at some point he will be honest when his reputation or legacy is no longer in danger.  He wants to be known as he is and he wants everything about himself to be loved.  He posthumously wants to be absolved but more than that he wants to be worshiped by young boys, and he is peacocking for them.  I would bet that his claim to be straight is nothing more than a way of throwing off his scent.  We see in his debating style that he conceals, conflates, and obfuscates.

Part of my profile method is figuring out who is speaking, and by who I mean what personality, what meme.  Dawkins meme is a manly intellectual homosexual meme that more or less despises women as intellectual inferiors.  You aren’t familiar with the meme because it isn’t common in America, but it is common in Britain.  He is using your lack of knowledge against you to manipulate you and conceal himself or reveal himself strategically.

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Shared State Theory of Communication Revisited

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What is a shared state?  Well, what is a state?  A state is an experience.  Something that the individual experiences.  A shared state is when two people share the same experience or a similar experience.  Due to the peer review procedure in science, scientific research has to be verified by third parties.  Similar, to that SSTOC is based on the concept of communication and shared states, communication itself is based on being educated into the same experiences.  The letter A means the same to you as it does to me, we use the same alphabet, the word ant means the same to you as it does to me, those are all shared states.

Not shared states are states that other’s haven’t experienced or imagined or they are aware of the same object but we are in relationship with it differently.  SSTOC is used to describe what is happening in relationship and communication, it presupposes that as a person speaks, so they think, and so they act.  This is true for rational people but it is not true for people that use psychopathic processes in relationship that relate strategically, and communicate strategically, and conceal.

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There are 7 states, every event falls into one or more of these states.  This is based on my concept of humans being organic computers, and everything, event, word, and thought having survival data, emotional data, and analytical data.  As two or more people use the states in communication you can begin to see how you interpret, judge, and react differently to everything, and how you are the same and what you will be able to collaborate on together.  There are certain necessary presuppositions if this philosophy is going to be applied correctly.

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As I began using my models to deconstruct, I found that there was a different way to use them, I could reverse the polarity and communicate to people as well.  People many times weren’t capable of understanding this system in it’s simplicity and beauty, and then others would lie or disagree saying they didn’t think it was accurate.  Funny thing is I could deconstruct events and narratives correctly using it and even predict events based on it.  I found that I was able to use the system to communicate to people on an unconscious, subliminal level.  At the same time I became aware that I could do this with the system I found that in the media, in the movies, on the tv, people were already doing it on a conscious or semi-conscious level, some of them better than others, some of them can only be called masters at it (Steven Spielberg, Tim Burton, Jon Stewart, Seth McFarlane) not only that there was a full fledged subliminal propaganda war going on.

COMMUNICATING STATES

I am going to show you one of the recent ones that caught my attention.  There are certain qualia to messages, the person speaking, the person they are speaking too (the audience), the medium of the message (tv), the content of the message, the meaning of the message, and the intent of the message.

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So, obviously the person speaking is AT&T, but who are they speaking to?  All of the subliminal messages points to the modernized black family that probably voted for President Obama, and has ancestral ties to the Maoist movement of the black panthers.  I don’t want you to think I am saying anything bad, I am not judging, I am just describing, and I am not making this up.  You think it makes no sense because the message wasn’t sent to you, it’s not for you, it will resonate with people that have experienced those states and while not particularly sympathetic to the black panthers not completely unsympathetic either.  I am not a bad person for being aware of the import of the concealed message.  If there is anything bad being done it is by AT&T spending millions of dollars on figuring out what demographic they are weak in and hiring a think tank to show them how to borrow authority in the black community.

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I am just speaking the truth boldly. 

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Something in Nature Hates Psychopaths.

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This is something I always thought was fascinating, their is an intelligence in the animals in nature that hates psychopathy.  Psychopaths attract sociopathic predators.  Psychopaths are loud, arrogant, attention whores that attract too much attention to themselves and possess too little skill.  Predators that know themselves accurately and possess skill are immediately attracted by the asymmetrical movements and noises given off by psychopaths.  Instead of being graceful and fluid and silent and not attracting attention to themselves, psychopaths are narcissistic and loud and boisterous, and they don’t evaluate themselves correctly, they over rate themselves and their abilities.  They attack first and keep escalating the situation expecting the other person to back down, which is all fine and dandy until the psychopath meets a sociopath.  

The hearing of the Barn owl is sensitive to the rustling sound that vermin make as they are foraging.  The noisy scratching, and nervous twitching of the mice.

THE EAR ITSELF 
The ear opening of an owl is almost a rectangle in shape, about 8mm by 5mm, rimmed with pink skin which holds a few fine, tiny feathers. There is also a feathered flap of skin between the ear and the eye, which acts as an ear cover. The ear covers are probably in slightly different positions when the owl is relaxed, or when it is alert. The ear of a Barn Owl is most sensitive to the frequencies of sounds that a small mammal might make. While hearing a mixed noise, it particularly focuses on sounds between 6kHz (kilohertz) and 9kHz. 
http://www.bocn.org/factfile_detail.asp?id=39

Predatory cats are attracted to movements that are asymmetrical or nervous, because of the tapetum lucidum the movement irritates they eyes.  

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The tapetum lucidum /təˈptəm/ (Latin: “bright tapestry”, plural tapeta lucida)[1] is a layer of tissue in the eye of many vertebrates.[2]Lying immediately behind the retina it reflects visible light back through the retina, increasing the light available to the photoreceptors, though blurring the initial image of the light on focus. The tapetum lucidum contributes to the superior night vision of some animals. Many of these animals are nocturnal, especially carnivores that hunt their prey at night, while others are deep sea animals.

Similar adaptations occur in some species of spiders, although these are not the result of a tapetum lucidum. Most primates, including humans, lack a tapetum lucidum, and compensate for this by perceptive recognition methods and by the use of altering the iris. ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tapetum_lucidum#Mechanism)

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Sharks have a lateral line the acoustico lateralis, a line on it’s body with sensory cells that can sense a possible dinner as much as a mile away based on the thrashing about in the water.  The non fluid, asymmetrical, clumsy, graceless movements of psychopaths tells them a possible dinner is near.  Psychopaths irritate sociopaths.  

Something in nature hates a psychopath.  

Douchebag Nation pt. 3 The Psychopath Explosion

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I used this picture because of the visually stunning nature and the emotional data that it communicates.  HEATH LEDGER’S JOKER IS NOT A PSYCHOPATH HE IS A SOCIOPATH!  

A Sociopath MUST have the following traits:

  1. Contemptuous of those who seek to understand them.
  2. Does not perceive that anything is wrong with them.
  3. Authoritarian.
  4. Secretive.
  5. Paranoid.
  6. Seldom in trouble with the law, but seeks out situations where their tyrannical behavior will be tolerated, condoned, or admired.
  7. Conventional appearance and behaviour.
  8. Lust for power, money, or revenge.
  9. Exercises despotic control over every aspect of their victims’ lives.
  10. Has an emotional need to justify their crimes and therefore needs their victim’s affirmation (respect, gratitude and love).
  11. Ultimate goal is the creation of a willing victim.
  12. Incapable of real human attachment to another.
  13. Unable to feel remorse or guilt, yet at the same time unable to seek pleasure from harming others.
  14. Extreme narcissism and grandiose.
  15. May state readily that their goal is to rule the world or other great ambitions, and as such as very organised and methodical to live up to such grandiose goals.

http://villains.wikia.com/wiki/Category:Sociopaths

http://www.reddit.com/r/FanTheories/comments/1cefwr/

Psychopaths are in relationship with their authority over others, in order to be in relationship with their authority they have to edit their consideration sets to only be in relationship with people that participate with their authority.  Which means they need a stupid manipulable society in order to stay in power.  It used to be that there were opportunities for everyone in the united states, there were enough carrots to go around.  

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So as the amount of rewards are decreasing, because the people at the top are keeping more of the wealth in order to destroy the middle class and consolidate power and control to themselves, how do you continue incentivizing a stupider and stupider society?  You indoctrinate them into a gambling mentality.  Human beings are acquisitively mimetic due to the existence of the mirror neuron and they copy behaviors that they see being rewarded.  Instead of evaluating people correctly and putting them in the commensurate positions where they can create the most value for the most people, instead of giving people what they earned you reward people for competing and jumping through your hoops, you reward the people that participate with your authority over them.  It creates a process where we go from the American Dream for everybody, to a few carrots that are up for grabs, to everybody is fighting over one carrot.  The actual solution is to turn universally on the people causing the problem for their own benefit, and that solution is going to be the only solution that actually succeeds.  

Every major civilization has had one thing in common, a large middle class.  These middled classes moved freely horizontally across the world, sharing ideas and philosophies with one another.  The removal of the middle class is a ploy to keep democratic horizontal ideas from being shared and best processes from being utilized.  They are trying to maintain their quality of life for as long as they can while depriving us of a quality of life and demoting us into a slave class with no freedom.  

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Casinos are essentially banks in the eyes of the IRS.  They don’t create any real value for an economy, the value they do create is illusory and temporary.  Everybody is opening casinos to stimulate their economies, which only works if you have a few casinos and have to travel from all over the world to go to them.  You bring the wealth that you created from your country and you lose it to the Casino.  THE HOUSE ALWAYS WINS.  Casinos indoctrinate people into a gambling addiction, if people are getting bored they rig one of the machines to pay out.  This stimulates everybody to feel that they have a chance of winning.  Casinos are considered entertainment.  Besides being a black hole for cash, how do they actually enrich an economy, or raise the quality of it’s citizens?  They don’t.  ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casino_regulations_under_the_Bank_Secrecy_Act)

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I was watching VH1 and there was some show where they were talking about how much money Lil Wayne’s grill cost.  There was a guy with a British voice narrating everything, it was very reminiscent of the Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous.  As long as we can be entertained by the vicarious enjoyment of other people’s success and deluded into thinking that we are not special and don’t have anything to offer we are perpetuating the system.  It is evidence of self loathing, because you have innate guilt and feelings that you yourself are not worthy, you will keep everyone around you down as well, wishing you had that special something that certain…

je ne sais quoi 

ETYMOLOGY

From French je ne sais quoi, literally ‘I don’t know what’.

je ne sais quoi (uncountable)

  1. An intangible quality that makes something distinctive or attractive.
    She has a certain je ne sais quoi about her.

Yeah, it sounds special because it’s in another language and you don’t know what it means, feel stupid yet?  Good!  You should.  A year ago I described to my General Manager what was about to happen, this is how I described it:

You don’t get it, the ship has already sunk.  What is happening now is that all of the rats that were on the ship have formed a big ball in the middle of the ocean and they are climbing on top of each other in order to be the last rat to drown.  

Don’t be a rat.  All those that play the game lose.  Love yourself by staying in relationship and being loyal to those people that are loyal to you and who create value for you.  Don’t denigrate or humiliate yourself by trying to socially climb on the people that are close to you that have never harmed you.  All of this shit is going bye bye anyway.  

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Male and Female Minds Revisited

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I am going to revisit my theory on male and female brains to practice my explanation of it.  Science after all is the explanatory art.  

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-Wikipedia

Super-ego[edit]

The superego (GermanÜber-Ich)[26] reflects the internalization of cultural rules, mainly taught by parents applying their guidance and influence.[8] Freud developed his concept of the super-ego from an earlier combination of the ego ideal and the “special psychical agency which performs the task of seeing that narcissistic satisfaction from the ego ideal is ensured … what we call our ‘conscience’.”[27] For him “the installation of the super-ego can be described as a successful instance of identification with the parental agency,” while as development proceeds “the super-ego also takes on the influence of those who have stepped into the place of parents — educators, teachers, people chosen as ideal models.”[28]

…also known as growing the fuck up. 

The existence of id consolidates the authority of Ego, in the absence of Id the ego will be sympathetic with it’s own desires and try to get super-ego to participate with it, which is the sole purpose of ego, and exactly the opposite of what Super ego wants, it directly antagonizes the will of super ego.  When I was studying male and female communication rituals my obscene abilities of pattern recognition were able to pick up on the patterns of the female brain and the way it is in relationship with the male brain.  This creates emergent properties in society and the world.  The 1 on 1 relationships create the norm, and people being aquisitively mimetic copy what they have seen.  This unconscious process, these unconscious relationships and patterns create a normative bias that creates disparate impact in favor of feminine judgments or ego.  Not only are the outcropping patterns bad they are dangerous and unsustainable.  

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Female authority comes from usurping, blaming, guilting, shaming, and humiliating masculine authority.  Women do not see reason as their own will, they see it as a foreign invasive will, because they edit their consideration set to think sentimentally and emotionally not analytically or logically.  They don’t think about the ugly things that are going on in the world they think about the pretty things that would be pleasant if they were true.  The female mind ignores threats, and is naturally hostile to the masculine narrative which is to say they don’t listen to men with the same eagerness that they listen to other women and to their own emotions.  The female mind uses mercy and charity to expand her authority and to appear a moral superior to reason.  The male narrative is democratic, bold, offensive, truthful, easy to understand because it isn’t vague.  The female narrative tries to shut the male narrative up by presupposing a meritocracy of pleasantness where being pleasant is a virtue and you can’t speak your truth plainly and boldly.  The meritocracy of pleasantness thwarts the meritocracy of reason and prevents participation of the best with the best.  The female mind thinks it wins by getting offended even if it throws itself in the way to get offended for someone else, once offended the female mind presupposes it’s own moral authority to judge and punish.  

Parrhesia

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

In rhetoricparrhesia is a figure of speech described as: to speak candidly or to ask forgiveness for so speaking.[1] The term is borrowed from the Greek παρρησία (πᾶν “all” + ῥῆσις / ῥῆμα “utterance, speech”) meaning literally “to speak everything” and by extension “to speak freely,” “to speak boldly,” or “boldness.” It implies not only freedom of speech, but the obligation to speak the truth for the common good, even at personal risk.

An example of this is the quote “I have nothing to offer but blood, toil, tears, and sweat” by Winston Churchill.[2]

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My term “Superficial Aesthetic Snap Decisions”  are the tacit judgments made by the uneducated female mind without understanding.  (http://terminclature.wordpress.com/2013/11/19/superficial-aesthetic-snap-decisions/) The uneducated mind is easily offended thinking  that everything in the brief, pleasant span of its short life has prepared it to judge everything that goes on from it’s own narrow-minded opinion.  It is essentially operating tacitly on a dynamic tautology of argument from ignorance. 

Argument from ignorance (Latinargumentum ad ignorantiam), also known as appeal to ignorance (in which ignorance stands for “lack of evidence to the contrary”), is a fallacy in informal logic. It asserts that a proposition is true because it has not yet been proven false (or vice versa). This represents a type of false dichotomy in that it excludes a third option, which is that there is insufficient investigation and therefore insufficient information to prove the proposition satisfactorily to be either true or false. Nor does it allow the admission that the choices may in fact not be two (true or false), but may be as many as four, (1) true, (2) false, (3) unknown between true or false, and (4) being unknowable (among the first three).[2] In debates, appeals to ignorance are sometimes used to shift the burden of proof. -wikipedia

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Let me see if I can explain this another way.  We have all of this technology in America, google +, facebook, wordpress, etc. many people think that they are experts on how the internet works.  This is called epistemic arrogance.  Over valuing what you know and undervaluing what you don’t know.  It is very good for making you feel good about yourself but it is very bad for knowing the threats that are coming at you.  That feeling goodness, prevents you from understanding the nature of the enemy that hates you and wants to eradicate you off the face of the planet.  That positive emotional female crap, is a liability, it makes you weak, slow, and unprepared.  

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The Deep Web (also called the Deepnet,[1] Invisible Web,[2] or Hidden Web[3]) is World Wide Web content that is not part of the Surface Web, which is indexed by standardsearch engines. It should not be confused with the dark Internet, the computers that can no longer be reached via the Internet, or with a Darknet distributed filesharing network, which could be classified as a smaller part of the Deep Web. There is concern that the deep web can be used for serious criminal activity.[4]

Mike Bergman, founder of BrightPlanet and credited with coining the phrase,[5] said that searching on the Internet today can be compared to dragging a net across the surface of the ocean: a great deal may be caught in the net, but there is a wealth of information that is deep and therefore missed.[6] Most of the Web’s information is buried far down on dynamically generated sites, and standard search engines do not find it. Traditional search engines cannot “see” or retrieve content in the deep Web—those pages do not exist until they are created dynamically as the result of a specific search. As of 2001, the deep Web was several orders of magnitude larger than the surface Web.[7]

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thank you iconographic art of joxua mourningstar 

 

This is a photoshop I did of Nishkala shiva, and Sikala Shiva, an ancient Indian metaphor for the nature of the mind. Sikala Shiva is in corpse pose but still alive, although in a dormant state, he represents the subconscious mind, many orders of magnitude greater than the conscious mind represented by Shakti.  Below him is Niskala Shiva in his dead form representing the unconscious mind, many orders of magnitude greater than the subconscious mind. 

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Psychopathology and Entitlement.

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The last evolution of the human brain is the frontal lobe, it is also the last part of the brain to fully develop and neurally myelinate.  It essentially deals with proper relationship, right and wrong.  

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Function[edit]

The executive function of the frontal lobes involve the ability to recognize future consequences resulting from current actions, to choose between good and bad actions (or better and best), override and suppress socially unacceptable responses, and determine similarities and differences between things or events.

The frontal lobes also play an important part in retaining longer term memories which are not task-based. These are often memories associated with emotions derived from input from the brain’s limbic system. The frontal lobe modifies those emotions to generally fit socially acceptable norms.

Psychological tests that measure frontal lobe function include finger tapping, Wisconsin Card Sorting Task, and measures of verbal and figural fluency.[5]

In my psychological model, psychopaths are over coddled children if they are not psychopaths due to damage or deformity.  They have been in an enriched environment in which they were able to have anything that they desired, this creates a normative process for them where they always expect to be able to have anything that they desire.  Psychopaths feel entitled, they feel worthy of everything.  There is the object that they covet and they are deserving of it, so the question becomes how do they get it, not how to they earn it.  

If you listen closely to the narrative of a psychopath they rationalize why they should have what they want even if it is a resource they don’t possess, even if it is somebody else’s resource, even if they have to trespass somebodies boundaries to get it.  They will lie, communicate strategically, obfuscate, conflate, every form of strategic communication in order to convince somebody that they should have what they want, that they deserve it.  I find this so interesting in observing psychopaths, the some of their actions has to take them in a direction where they can approach doing their will.  If their is something they want right now, they will communicate that this is the correct and moral thing to happen.  They will go back to something they already did, in a tit for tat exchange and they will inflate the value of a past service in order to get what they want right now. 

I had an interesting experience lately with the L case study.  I recently acquired a new dog, L is territorial and is threatened by any positive attention that is not being given to herself, she feels that she deserves to be the focus of all positive attention all of the time.  So based on shared state theory of communication and the communication rituals of the mother trying to control the focus of the child and control the way the child is emotionally in relationship with the object of focus it was interesting to deconstruct her narrative.  She kept on asking me over and over again if I had made an effort to find the dogs family, I had and was continuing to do so.  She would talk about how sad they must be and that the dog belonged to somebody in spite of my telling her that signs had been put up and somebody was taking them down and nobody had called to claim the dog.  Everything she was saying was a tautology of the dog not being mine, belonging to somebody else and leading towards framing me as doing something wrong  by communicating emotional data(the female mind uses fear, guilt, and shame to manipulate the male mind).  

Last night I was taking my dogs for a walk and lo and behold there was a little girl drawing on the pavement with chalk, and Pazuzu (that’s what I named her) started freaking out and wagging her tail, kissing the girl and snuggling her.  The little girl ran in the house and informed her parents that “shelby” was back.  The mother appeared and she was very chagrined, she chose her words carefully in front of the little girl, I asked her if she would like to talk somewhere out of earshot and she agreed, I asked her if she wasn’t able to afford a dog at this moment and she said that her family had just moved here from Texas, and they had just found out she was pregnant, and everybody was gone all day and the dog was very unhappy.  I said I would keep the dog and the little girl could see her.  I told her that I have a room mate that works different hours than myself and we have another dog about the same size, she was very happy.  That is as far as I got in the story with L.  

What happened next was a very special connection and emotional release with the dog.  She was inconsolable, whining and making noise, very sad.  Now here is the part that I wanted to tell L, the part that was important to me, me and Lisa my room mate started howling like wolves, and Pazuzu joined in wholeheartedly.  It was soulful, mournful, whaling, I didn’t realize the emotional impact of howling until I experienced this with Pazuzu, we became a wolf pack at that moment, sharing her suffering with her.  She was a little virtuoso at howling. (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5T-ZThSE5rQ)  <<<RELATED LINK. 

What L did, is she was like, “WAIT A MINUTE!  I THOUGH YOU SAID YOU FOUND THE FAMILY.”  She started repeating herself like a retard, with a lot of negative emotional data, reiterating that it was their dog, and the correct thing for them to do is for them to take responsibility for their actions, (L doesn’t take responsibility for her actions…) Notice the use of self appointed authority in her narrative, she can’t say what she is saying unless she is speaking from a perspective of moral authority.  She didn’t let me tell her about the healing part, the cathartic part that was so beautiful and meaningful to me.  She hijacked the conversation and drowned the narrative.  She even kept on calling me back and starting the conversation at the exact same place, increasing the intensity and emotional data.  

It is also of interest that two co-morbid psychopaths will join forces for the same reason, of getting what they want, even if they shouldn’t have it.  Also of interest is how much quicker people will band together to do evil than do good.  Just like L they don’t think about the happiness of everybody or anybody else, only their own happiness and feelings.  She completely ignored that value had been created for just about everybody, which is part of my theories on relationship “efficiency towards value”, and maximizing value, a meritocracy of results.  She even said to me on another subject that when she does stuff for me she doesn’t want anyone else benefiting from it, lol, the exact opposite of my stated purpose for our relationship.  (((SMH)))

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